Escape Plan…

I have been here before unfortunately

Sometimes months apart 

Sometimes years 

All with the same heartbreak 

I’ve wondered and contemplated 

Is it me ? 

Is it them?

First there is the emotional fit 

Then rational part kicks in

If something keeps happening and you’re the common denominator it’s got to be you right?

Maybe it is?

It will happen is the constant reassurance 

There have been numerous offers of escapes and distractions while waiting for the “happen”

I have thought, fought and even fallen in 

Just because I wanted to feel something 

But I don’t want a safety net 

That isn’t real security 

What I want you can’t give 

No matter how dazzling the time is

The net is an illusion it’s nothing but a web with sticky fingers

A temporary that will just have me right back where I started 

Probably a little more broken than I was to begin with 

So no I don’t want your hand through this broken window 

I’d rather watch the whole house burn 

Alone

From the ashes something new will rise

What it will be idk , How idk 

But I’m willing to jump to find out